I went to the grief and loss retreat this weekend.  I quickly came to the conclusion that the thing I have lost recently is my body.  I have been so in my head for so long that sometimes I think I will never be able to get back to my body.  This weekend I saw some glimpses of what I have been missing.  It’s not as far away as I might think.
I made a video this morning.  I weighed myself on top of the mountain.  I was 236.5 pounds which means I lost 3 pounds in the last week.  Success!
The thing that has really been frustrating me is that I have made a series of 2 minute videos and many days it has taken me the whole day to edit and get it on youtube and this blog.  It feels like there is an energy that is in my way.  I want it to be easy.  The hard part should be going up the mountain and making a video, not editing it and getting it to you.
The good news is that my frustration has not led to eating badly.  I am on a mission.  Most of the time I am pretty clear about it.  The hardest times are after 5 p.m.  This is when I find it easy to lose my way with food.

3 Responses to “Frustration”

  1. Anonymous says:

    Way to go….you lost 3 pounds. Nice work!

  2. Anonymous says:

    I think you mean 236.5 pounds, not 336.5 pounds, right? :)

  3. Jon says:

    You are right that we are way too “in our heads” and have lost the connection to our bodies and what we put into them. With regard to grief and emotions and their effect on weight, chronic stress of any kind can cause you to gain and hold on to weight thru increased cortisol production. I would highly recommend finding some time every day to destress. It's all about hormones and cortisol is vitally important. Increased cortisol will hold on to belly fat and increase your cravings for carb heavy foods.

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